You can't live on love alone.

I found the love of my life and then I lost him. Sometimes it makes me so sad that I feel like I can't continue (drama) and sometimes I pretend like it never happened so it doesn't hurt as bad. I miss him so much all the time, but I don't give myself time to truly feel sorry for myself because there are way worse things going on in the world. I still cry and wonder what he's doing, but it doesn't hurt nearly as much as it used to. I feel like one day I'll wake up and I'll be completely free of the memories and it makes me very happy and very sad at the same time. The other day one of my friends at work mentioned him and now finally I'm getting pretty good at saying we're not together anymore when people ask about him. He asked why he didn't see me walking around crying and knocking holes in walls, so I laughed and told him I try to shield everyone at work from that. He asked me if I cried and I told him I cry all the time. At first I didn't know where the conversation was going and then he said something that really touched me and made me cry (yeah, I'm a big sissy); he told me not to worry about it because he wasn't worth it and he doesn't even know what he let go. He also told me that long distance relationships don't ever work and if I didn't believe it I should ask any man in jail lol. Well, that cracked me up and brought everything back around for me. I know I love him, I know he loves me, I just don't know why it isn't working. I guess love really isn't enough.